Friday, September 25, 2009

Strange Response

Through a couple of Facebook contacts, I connected with someone I had completely forgotten about from middle school. I have seen or heard from him since the end of 9th grade. In fact, I had pretty much forgotten he existed. What was strange was that when I realized who it was and saw his picture, I became very excited. I almost couldn't stop thinking out him during the day. That feeling has passed now. I'm just trying to figure out why. I wasn't even that close to him. I had no clue at that age that I'd be a bit confused sexually. He wasn't any crush. But looking at his photo now, I have to admit he's got a nice look to him. He appears to be well accomplished and living on the other side of the country.
I guess it's okay that someone handsome and intelligent struck my fancy for a moment. That moment's passed, and I'm okay with it. Most of the time I'm quite happy with my life. I just occassionally have these passing fantasies about what if...

1 comment:

santorio said...

you know that overdone "a butterfly flaps its wings and across the world..." i was pretty much repressed in high school, but attending a secular, liberal college, what if my assigned roommate had been gay, or a coworker or classmate. a glance, a touch.. who knows where i'd be now.