Thursday, April 3, 2008

Doing better

I started a new job a few weeks back, and though while I'm busier, I'm happier. I'm fitting in and feeling like I'm accomplishing something each day. I did not have that feeling at my last job. The boredom and lack of responsibility at my last job really weighed down on me and didn't help the SSA.

During the last few weeks, I've definitely hungered for the touch of another man. None of my guy friends generally feel any need to touch. I'm usually initiating it, and so it's usually a handshake or a hug from the side. But I do have good friends, and I do my best to remember that's what's more important. I'm even considering telling one of them about my SSA. I've never told anyone.

So, life is good. My wife and I are transitioning with the new job and having a new baby. We're looking forward to some vacation time this summer and celebrating a milestone anniversary.

I wish my faith and testimony were greater. I don't really have any excitement for conference coming up. General Conference, while the topics are great, feels like a regurgitation of all that has come before. That sounds worse than I meant. I do feel the Spirit when listening to the talks, but whereas I used to make sure I could watch as much of the 10 hours of conference as possible, now I almost try to find excuses to minimize it, especially on Saturday. Though, I can't wait to find out who the new apostle will be. I'm hoping for one of the Seventy from Latin America to be called.

1 comment:

Forester said...

I'm jealous of your new job. I've been experiencing the same things you did in your previous job. Most of the time I'm bored and angered that I'm not given more responsibility. I'm glad you were able to find something new an different that is working for you. I've been looking for new purpose and meaning in my career.