It's time for me to join the blogger world. I found the world of fellow Mormons who suffer from SSA about a year ago. I've been following some of the blogs, but never posted on the blogs. I listed some of my favorites. After a few bad days, I realized how lonely I am. I haven't told anybody, except for a few people on the Disciples 2 Yahoo! group. I decided today that I need a voice and a place to express how I'm feeling. I need to do something productive instead of only dwelling on the issue in my daydreams.
I'm a married Mormon man who suffers from occasional insecurities, not the least of which is same-sex attraction. I'm trying to find the joy in the good characteristics I have from SSA while avoiding the pitfalls of its burdens. I'm not good at opening up, so this blog is to provide a forum for me to express my feelings and experiences with SSA.
1. And it came to pass, when he had made an end of speaking unto Saul, that the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul. *** 3. Then Jonathan and David made a covenant, because he loved him as his own soul. 4. And Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was upon him, and gave it to David, and his garments, even to his sword, and to his bow, and to his girdle.
I salute you in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, in token or remembrance of the everlasting covenant, in which covenant I receive you to a fellowship in a determination that is fixed, immovable, and unchangeable, to be your friend and brother through the grace of God in the bonds of love, to walk in all the commandments of God blameless, in thanksgiving, forever and ever. Amen.
Teachings of the Prophet Joseph Smith
“Friendship is one of the grand fundamental principles of ‘Mormonism’; [it is designed] to revolutionize and civilize the world, and cause wars and contentions to cease and men to become friends and brothers.”